Social butterfly

I just looked at the time and it's nearly 1am. I swear it was 11pm a few seconds ago.

Well that afternoon [more like yesterday considering it's not wednesday anymore] I caught up with a bestie and I had heaps of talking and catching up. It felt good to leave the house for the first time in nearly 3 weeks to have contact with human beings besides my mum even though it was local.

Bestie and I went to What The Fudge. It's such a clever name for a cafe/dessert place omg. Anyway, we had waffles drizzled in chocolate sauce with ice-cream, bananas and strawberries and ice cream called summer bliss which came with passionfruit ice cream and mango sorbet with whipped cream and fruits. OMG THEY WERE SIMPLY AMAZING LOVE LOVE LOVE IT. Although the waffles weren't the best ones I've ever had and the place was pretty small which was kind of sad.

I've made plans with two people from high school I haven't seen for five months omg. I'm kind of excited to see them again as they are the only two people [besides the four I regularly talk too] from high school I want to meet and talk to again.

OH and my favourite fic of all them was just completed and I don't know what to feel... o m g. It was so well written o m g no one understands. The author is a complete genius to write something so special. cries.
This was my comment when the fanfiction finished:

[The Client] o m g my heart. this ride was absolutely amazing and i have to say the ending wasn't disappointing which im so so so so so so so grateful for. the character development and the plot was simply amazing. the way you were able to intergrade actual things happening in kpop atm in the story as well, just made it more real and im crying because im going to read it again. thank you so much for writing this amazing story. i dont think ive cried so much before.. ever beside watching 1L of tears. your writing skills are so amazing. i wish i had your skills when i was back in highschool doing my final exams AHAHAAAHAHAHAH. 
i'll be supporting your future and current works!
much love! xo.

Instead of continuing I Hear Your Voice, I started Suits and I'm freaking hooked and in love o m g. Urgh I've only watched the first episode and I'm half way through the second one and I've already said it was good - THAT MEANS IT'S GOOD.

Keep on rocking bloggers,

Love Jen. xo.

Was Playing:
Girl's Day: Expectation [Expectation]
Jay Park: Secret [I Like 2 Party]
Xia: Tarantallegra [Tarantallegra]
Xia: Incredible [Incredible]
2NE1: I Don't Care [1st Mini Album]

I take lazy to the next level.

I'm half-way through the third week of holidays and I haven't been out. AT.ALL. o m g. I don't know why I haven't made plans with friends to catch up or anything but I'm like whatevs BUT I SHOULD CARE. There have been a few attempts to catch up with friends but it is always cancelled because one can't make it but to think about it now, I have not socalised with anyone at all.

I like to think I'm being all lazy now because once spring semester starts I'll be devoting a lot of time to university. I just got my results a few hours ago and I'm happy to announce I have passed semester one! I'm so surprised I passed Cell Biology and Genetics because I was 100% certain I failed that final exam. It wasn't even funny because I never felt like shit before ever in my life and to think I was ONE MARK away from a credit was very surprising!

The argument between my mother and I got better. We didn't talk to each other for two days but on the third day my mum was cutting the grass so I told her I would help and she started talking to me afterwards, plus I was sick so she took me to the doctors. But yeah, like I said; I want to go back to uni as soon as possible... the longer I stay in this house the more arguments we have.

Bleh, I need to continue watching I Hear Your Voice BEST KDRAMA EVA. [I'm only up to ep 3 l o l]

Keep on rocking bloggers,

Love Jen. xo.

Was Playing: 
Ailee: I'll Be Okay [A's Doll House]
Jay Park: Let's Make Up [I Like 2 Party]
Roy Kim: Love Love Love [Love Love Love]
Ailee: U&I [A's Doll House]
2NE1: In The Club [1st Mini Album]
B.A.P: Coffee Shop [Single]

Bro, I'm still here.

The last time I updated was when I was nearly 18 and now I've been 18 for a few months and my life has been okay [I like to think that but I don't think so]. I really need to learn to keep to my promises and continue fulfilling them because I tend to stop or give up on everything. I think that's the hardest thing I have to break.

I'm basically giving a brief outline of the months that past from the February.

I said I was going to the gym but didn't go after the 7-day trial because I'm lazy(?). I always fill like I can lose weight without spending so much money. Once university starts, I know I won't be able to go because I'll be so busy.

My 18th birthday was a great day. I had so much fun spending it with family and friends. However I will never throw a huge party EVER again. The amount of stress I went through was ridiculous and other people thought their opinion mattered when it's not even their event... like plz. The relationship with my mother got worse during that time because we argued all.the.freaking.time. like no tomorrow about EVERYTHING omg. In the end, all that mattered was I had fun and my first alcoholic drink!

University... how do I even start with that? It is certainly different to high school and the atmosphere is much more easy going; you don't even need to attend lectures if you don't want to. The first semester is done and I don't even know what I'm feeling. I know I failed CBG but I still want to think I passed but LOL no, I failed that final exam and it was 40%, so if I didn't even 40% in that exam, I failed the whole subject which is stupid. I'm just excited for next semester because I have new ideas to study and prepare notes. I don't want a repeat of this semester EVER again.

CNBLUE: They came to Sydney and Melbourne for their world tour and I'm so happy I was able to attend. I went with a friend and we legit bought tickets for the concert the night before. We were lucky as there weren't many tickets left. CNBLUE are amazing live. Everything about time was amazing, their vocals, their instruments, their comments in english. But what spoiled the mood was the organisation... WORST ORGANISATION EVER o m g. No words can describe how shit it was. They opened the door THIRTY MINUTES BEFORE the concert started and expected 3000+ people to get inside in time. People legit missed out on the half concert. LEGIT HALF THE CONCERT. I was lucky enough to just make it to the end of the intro video and CNBLUE just came out. Also, there was only ONE line FOR EVERYONE. like o m g. VIP, GA and seating in ONE LINE going for kilometers and into really shady areas with no lighting and security. Some bad events could have happened. Might I add, the staff from JK Entertainment and Big Top were so rude, omg. They made everyone RUN in the RAIN. RUNNING.INTHE.RAIN. SERIOUSLY? and they were screaming at everyone. Like plz, you have no right to scream at me... I have been waiting outside for 3+ hours so don't tell me to hurry up. Hopefully they learn from their stupid, horrible mistakes and make sure it never happens again. I swear all the shit stuff happens at kpop concerts.

CLUBBING: I went for the first time EVER so I've lost my 'clubbing virginity' as they like to call it. It was for a my best friend's 21st birthday! I had a great time. I don't think I've stepped on so much alcohol in my life. Dancing was so fun! I don't think I would wear really high heels ever again to go clubbing. Before going to the club, we went to a bar and sat around and listened to music and people drank. I didn't drink a lot. I only had one drink and it was okay.

I guess I always blog whenever I feel troubled or when I have a few problems in my life... I feel like the relationship between my mother and I is getting worst. I've been on holidays for a week and I have around a month to go and I've been getting mad at her so many times BUT it's not even my fault(?). I asked my mother to go clubbing with my friends and she said no and I understood her... She fears for my safety and such HOWEVER, when I asked her if I could go out to eat dinner with my friends; the same ones I might add, she said no.. and I didn't even understand? What is so wrong with eating out with friends? Nothing reckless is going to happen and I feel like I am a really good, well-behaved daughter. What makes me mad the most is that she has no trust in me!! I never had alcohol until I was 18. Whenever it was someone's birthday, all my friends would drink and I'll be the only one to wouldn't because one; I didn't want to disappoint my mum and two; it's against the law. Like my mum could not have a better than daughter than me. I've made her proud by studying and getting into university and when she told me to not get a boyfriend, I would've and I've hurt someones hurt as well as my own because I didn't want to disappoint her and be considered as a bad daughter to her. I don't even know where this is going but I'm mad at the lack of trust she has in me. I can look after myself... hell, I don't even go out as much as I want, We've been arguing a lot for the past few days and I'm sick of the holidays and I just want to get back to university so I don't have to see my mum all the time.

I hope I will go out more before the holiday is over, catching with my friends and I hope the relationship between my mother and I will get better...

I think I'm getting sick omg. My throat hurts. Scratch that, I AM SICK. f m l.

So, keep on rocking bloggers,

Love Jen. xo.

#nowplaying: XOXO album by Exo.
It's an excellent album... besides wolf but it grows on you. 'geurae wolf, nega wolf awooooo ~' more like olf. 
Favourites: My Lady, Baby Don't Cry. Peter Pan

Revisiting Memories

New years resolution is to live life too the fullest. I want to enjoy this new journey in my life

I haven't blogged in a while and so many things have happened over the past couple of months.

• I've finished the HSC
• I've been overseas from 07/12/13 to 12/01/13 to Thailand, Hong Kong, Macau and Cambodia
• I've been accepted into university

Briefly about each major event:

The HSC was not I expected it to be. I figured I would be more stressed and scared but I wasn't... I think it was too the point where I didn't care anymore. I believe I was worn out. My timetable was good, I had a lot of long breaks... which I didn't really use productively. I'm just glad that I've finished high school and I don't have to see people I don't want to see anymore.

Going overseas was the only thing I was looking forward too in 2012; going to Hong Kong was one of my dreams. I was in Asia for 5 weeks and it felt so long. I missed Australia so much. Every day felt so long and slow because I was up at 6am and going to sleep at 1am. 

Thailand was amazing. I arrived in international airport and caught a taxi to the domestic airport which was 1 hour away because of traffic. I then caught a plane to Chiang Mai. Let me tell you all, Chiang Mai is so amazing. The air is clean and my body felt really good there. In Chiang Mai, I did a lot of walking in forests/bushes which was really good exercise. After a few days, I flew back to Bangkok and basically travelled around Thailand; went sightseeing and shopping in the day and went to watch shows at night. 

After, I flew to Hong Kong and I wished I stayed there for longer :( Let me just say that people there are so rude. I just can't even. They are so rude... and they want everything to be clean but people just smoke everywhere that's why the air is so disgusting; but other than that Hong Kong is a beautiful place. I went to Disneyland and it was okay. There weren't many rides so it really was a waste of time. I also went to Macau and it's exactly like Hong Kong except with less people. People smoke everywhere... EVEN IN HOTELS. omg. The last day in Hong Kong was spent shopping!!!! It was so fun. Sasa was everywhere; I bought so many makeup products... My mother bought a Prada bag for $2500!!!!!!!!!! omg. I had to check out of the hotel at 3:30 in the morning because my flight to Cambodia was at 7am. However at 3am was when HSC results came out so I had no sleep and I was crying and I was freaking out. It was legit the worst thing ever. However I stopped being a pussy and checked my results and I was okay with them... IM NOT TELLING YOU OKAY. My mother was happy so that was a relief. So after my little emotional breakdown at 3am in the morning, I was able to catch my flight without getting sick. 

Oh Cambodia... I was there for 3 weeks and this was my 6th times there I think... and I wasn't really excited. I was only excited to see my aunty but that would be a while because I haven't seen her in years! She is such a cuties. Cries I legit travelled all around Cambodia except for the north-east part near to Laos boarder. I never hated sitting down for so long. My ass hurt like hell. I remember spending Christmas on the road to somewhere... I don't remember and spending New Years Eve in my hotel in Siem Reap because there were too many white people there taking up the whole Pub Street. 

Trying to pack all my luggage coming back home was so difficult. My mother and I only had 50kg and we had 72kg but thanks to connections were able to bring it all back. THANKFULLY. OMFG. Coming home and stepping into my house was legit to best. I was so emotional stepping into my room. I missed my clean bed, my clean toilet and my hot watered shower. omg. 

Overall my holiday was really great. I had heaps of fun with my mother. She is so fun to go on holiday with. She bought me to many make up and clothes I was really happy! ^^ OH and at Thailand airport my mother bought me a mcm handbag and wallet, now adding it to my collection with my mcm backpack. hehehehhehhehehehehehehehehhe.

Now university, my dream had always been to go to the University of Technology, Sydney. The people there are so friendly and I've always liked it there. I felt really comfortable; so I was really determined to get in AND I DID. YAYAYAYAYAYAY. I'm doing a Bachelor of Science [Biotechnology, Medical Science, Biomedical Science]. I've already enrolled and I even got my student ID. LOL. I start classes on 25/02/13 which is really soon. :(((((( NOOOOOOOO. 

LOL, 'brief.

Keep on rocking bloggers,

Love Jen. xo.

Music playing: BIGBANG; Gara Gara Go [ALBUM]

Second semester reports

OMG. I am seriously failing life. Like my report this year has been so bad! I hate the fact of getting ranked!.
The only thing that improved in this semester's report was mathematics. I went up by 4 spots and I'm happy with that.
The thing that is concerning me the most is physics. Like I am doing so bad... omfg. AND english as well! I did better than my friend in assessments but I'm somehow lower in rank than her... THAT IS COMPLETE BULLSHIT!
fuck.

I haven't showed my mother - not planning to. omfg. She would literally shoot my alive...

I seriously don't know what I am doing. SO MANY PEOPLE have HIGH expectations. My ATAR really needs to be good otherwise everyone is going to laugh at me. Getting in the 90s is really slim and I don't think it's happening. I will actually be happy with the 80s.

I'm seriously going to start crying.

Belonging

English was my second HSC assessment task. I don't know how I went to be honest. I think I did well. I wrote what I needed to write. Let's just hope my teacher likes it.

Anyways, finally this week is over and I can slowly relax. However, I have my SORI exam and it's like 30% or something, so I need to study, study, study.

This coming monday, I'm going to Jamberoo with the fambam because my cousin gets tickets every year for $5!! HOW CHEAP. I'm going to miss another day of school.... -_____- Oh well. I finish school in 5 days! :D 

Until next time, BYE ! <3

Stress

Today in physics, there was this one girl who was really stressed. In the time that I have known her, she generally stresses a lot. She was going on and on about how stress she was and how sick she felt and I didn't know if she was exaggerating it or she was ACTUALLY stressed. I don't know if she was trying to gain attention or get sympathy but it's so annoying. The big commotion she is creating in class is slowly making me stress.

I don't think I stress, I just get really worried and my heat beats fast but do I tell the whole world? No, of course not.

Anyways, it's always english that makes everyone go crazy. -______-

Can't wait until friday is over :D

My Life is a Fail?

Yesterday I had my HSC assessment task - physics.
omfg. What a fricken fail. lkdanlknlf. I don't even know anymore.

Currently, I'm doing english which is on Friday and I'm sick... :(((( My throat hurts so much and I can't breathe through my nose. I really hope I get better!

Wish me luck <3

#sadlyf
#depressed

Labour Day - 031011

Monday was labour day and my mother didn't go to work... suprisingly [she normally does], so she decided to go to the city! I was pretty excited. It was some time for some mother and daughter bonding! AHHA.

We were planning to go to Din Tai Fung [I didn't know the name at the time, my mother forgot -___-] but as usual my mother couldn't find it. We walked literally everywhere! From Town Hall station to St James Station and everything in between. I was so annoyed. My feet was in pain and I WAS HUNGRY! so in the end we went to Chinatown [we walked the long way] to eat some asian food! I had Wonton Noodle Soup and my mother had dumplings, pig's ear, seaweed and a pork bun! It was so good! hmmm.... 

As we were walking back to Westfields and Pitt St Mall, we went into World Square and we found that fricken restaurant! OMG I WAS GOING TO CRY! I wanted to eat fresh dim sims! :'(

We then into Myer in Westfields and went shopping! Almost everything was on sale! I was in heaven. My mother brought a bag and wallet and I brought a bag!

IT IS SO BEAUTIFUL! A Charlie Brown one tooooo! [post a picture later... when I am bothered]

- this has been in my drafts since 5th October! HAHAHAH
/fail whale

Steering away from the rest of the world

I don't know what I am thinking in getting blogger, but I need to steer away from tumblr, facebook and twitter. I don't feel like I am being myself.
This will be a blog where I can look back when I'm 30 and reminisce about what I had to go through now.
This will be a new start. A new me, a new Jennifer.